This is one of the cards that persuaded me to ask for the Joie de Vivre Tarot for Christmas. Isn’t it beautiful? I love the Elizabethan ruff and the colours in the mermaid’s hair. At first, I though she was holding a disembodied head, but it is Creed, Lady Justice’s underwater companion of many legs, who holds the scales.
This card bothers me more than most. I spend a lot of time worrying about the results of my previous words and actions. As an example, I think about how much I once drank and smoked and wonder what the effect will eventually be. Time can conceal, especially now that I do neither anymore. We sometimes forget those things we have said and done after many years; so much so that the results often seem unrelated and unexpected.
I’ve probably mentioned it before, but Yehuda Berg has said ‘We do not wake up one morning and find a full-grown Oak tree in our garden’. A seed had been sewn a long time before.
Even though previous actions have put me in the place I am now (whether I realise it or not), I am in a position of power when Lady Justice and Creed enter my day. They remind me of the seeds I plant today. What will they eventually grow into?
I was up and out this morning to see my agency guy. He’s a smiley Ross Kemp kind of bloke, who couldn’t be more helpful and calls me mate. The best thing about him is that he is warm and understands how things are for me right now. I haven’t found many like that since I became unemployed or was diagnosed with chronic fatigue. I talked to him about becoming self-employed eventually and he printed me out some stuff to look through. He said there might be a course I could go on, which would be useful. Planting seeds. It’s what we do now that serves us later.
Illustration from The Joie de Vivre Tarot by Paulina Cassidy